Well, well, well. Looks who’s back? Yeah, I know you’re all pumped. All three of you? Maybe four of you. I guess three is better than none. Give me some time, I’ll build myself an empire, then I don’t know what I will do, but if I fail at blogging again, my empire will probably come after me.
Anyways, back to the task at hand. Yes, I am back behind the keyboard to share things with everyone. Life lessons, stories, rants, and anything else that I feel should be talked about. I honestly don’t even remember the last time I wrote a blog post. It was probably before blogging was actually “cool”. Although now people v-log, which is like blog, but instead of typing, you record yourself talking. I’m terrible at public speaking, and I laugh at myself, so I think I’ll stick to the “old school” method for a while.
As I sit here waiting for my laundry to dry, I have many things going through my mind. What am I going to wear to work tomorrow (hence the laundry business), will I be able to sleep tonight, when is my library book due, when do I get paid, what is Trump going to screw up next, what will tomorrow bring, what will the rest of my life bring; just to name a few.
Life is so short, and so messed up, and so fast. Things just never stop. No wonder so many people have anxiety and depression, among other things. You can never catch a break, things don’t go right, things don’t go as planned, and then its a crap shoot from there. One thing leads to another, and pretty soon, you’re in the biggest rut on the planet, and you don’t know how to get out.
I have been in those ruts, and let me say, you don’t know how bad they are unless you’ve been in one. I can say, that for the last little while, I’ve been in one of these funks. Stuff happened this summer, but that’s another blog post to follow. I just felt like I couldn’t catch a break, and nothing I did was good enough, and I just had nothing left to give; I was exhausted, both physically and mentally.
I am fortunate enough to have the best friends on this planet, and they have never left my side. So I have all of them to thank. The texts, the FaceTime calls, the visits; it just makes things bearable for a while. It makes you forget reality, and actually smile, laugh, and be happy. I have always told my friends that I have their backs, no matter what, and I meant every word, and I still mean every word. If you are in my circle, or my posse, or whatever you want to call it, I will fight for you. Where I am going with this, is that it feels so nice to have some people return the favour, it is so nice to have these people by my side through the good, and especially the bad. I probably wouldn’t be here if I didn’t have my friends, they have gotten me through a lot, and I could never repay them. Family is important, and most of the time they will stick with you and help you out, but friends are the people that you choose, and that choose you. That is something that you need to hold onto, unless of course someone stabs you in the back, in which case that requires an immediate exit from the circle. Here’s your shit, vacate the premises. There is enough negativity in this world, people don’t need people in their lives that talk crap behind their backs, and sell them out, and throw them under the bus. Hold your friends close, you never know when you are going to need them to pick you up off the ground, dust you off, and get you back on the straight and narrow. I am fortunate enough that I have those people to turn to. You all know who you are. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I am always here for anyone who needs me. I love you.
Sorry for the weird/ sappy/ sad post. Normally I write about fun stuff, sports, and other random things, but I had to get some of this off my chest. Maybe it’s a good thing I dug up this blog. I hope you guys stick around, I know I am going to try to stick it out too.
PS: Song of the day was sent to me tonight by my person. Its called “Rest of our Life”- by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill. It just fits today. No rhyme or reason as to why. Enjoy.