You don’t get the same moment twice in life.

Bloggers, I have returned to the blogging world, after what seems like forever. I don’t even have a whole lot to report, I just felt like I needed to write some stuff down. I am unsure why, but it’s happening, so gear up.

Since my last post I have completed the number one thing on my bucket list; I have finally seen P!nk in concert! I got to go to Chicago, Illinois with the other half of Team Sweet, Andee, and I cannot even put it into words. What a show. We were on the floor, VIP passes, and to say it was electrifying is a HUGE understatement. Andee and I have been planning this concert and trip for 8 years now, and it finally happened. In fact, the concert was so effing good, that we are indeed going again. This time we are VIP’s heading to Winnipeg, Manitoba. We will see if the American and Canadian concerts are close to the same. I am super pumped to be going again. This time I will be able to take more of the show in. Most of the first show consisted of me crying, trying to take a million pictures, crying, taking videos, crying, asking Andee if this was real, and, you guessed it, more crying. I am hoping for less crying this time, but I doubt that is going to happen. I will keep everyone posted, or I will try to anyways. It should be another sick show. Can’t wait… 56 days!!

I have had a bit of an attitude change in the last while as well. I don’t want to say I have become arrogant, because that is not the right word. I have become less of a pushover, less of a follower, and more of a leader. I am working on doing what I want, and not what other people want. I am working on caring less about what other people think of me, and more on what I want to do and why I want to do it. Living life trying to please everyone is IMPOSSIBLE! There is always someone who is mad about your choice, and then there is always a fight. It gets old fast. It took me 23 years to figure it out, but better late than never. If you don’t like me, it’s a mind over matter thing. I don’t mind and you don’t matter. I am getting better, I am not where I want to be yet, but I am taking steps in the right direction. It is funny how people treat you and look at you when you start standing up for yourself. You don’t like it? Tough, I am done putting up with your crap. It’s all about Swag, and I have it.

I have also had some life changes in the last little while. Some people have left my circle of friends, and some people have joined my circle. I kinda have acquired a few more friends to replace the idiots that I don’t need anymore. One in particular has really got me shook. One minute I was scared to even approach them, and the next we are talking almost every day and pranking people and causing a ruckus together. Funny how life works sometimes. People get tossed out of your life for whatever reason, and then someone new moves in and you think to yourself, what the hell was I doing with dumbass over there this whole time, when I could have had beauty over here the entire time? I am a firm, firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and people are in and out of your life for a reason, and to teach you lessons. If they stick around it’s because they are special, and if they don’t, you take what you learned from them and move on, apply it to future decisions, and don’t dwell on what could have been. Anyways, if you’re reading, to the dullards that are no longer around, thanks for the life lessons, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. To the noobs who have entered the life of Ky, I look forward to the good times, the laughs, the tears, the stories, the life lessons you have to offer, and everything else. But mostly I am looking forward to a lifetime of memories. Buckle up, things get interesting 😉

In my closing words here I just want to look at the title of the post “You don’t get the same moment twice in life”. You don’t get many second chances, and you don’t get many second opportunities to tell people that you love them, or you care about them. So when you get that chance, take it. You may only get one. If it brings a smile to someone’s face then it is worth it. If it doesn’t then at least you know you said what you needed to say, and it’s another lesson learned. Don’t hold back, it is never too late for a change. If I can make the changes I have (not all of which are listed here), then anyone can. Say what you need to say, change what you need to change, and live life how YOU want to live it, not anyone else.

Cheers bloggers,

Kyzzer

Song of the day: Today my song of the day is “Still Got Yesterday” by Emerson Drive. It’s an oldie but give it a listen. I was musicated today with this song, and I would like to thank that person from the bottom of my heart. If you’re reading, you know who you are.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller

“Just because I laugh a lot, doesn’t mean my life is easy. Just because I have a smile on my face every day , doesn’t mean that something is not bothering me. I just choose to move on and not dwell on the negatives in my life. Every new moment gives me the chance to renew anew. I choose to be that.”

This pretty much sums up things about me right now. I have things that are bothering me, but I choose not to let it show. It is just how I am. I have had a lot to think about recently and I am having a tough time expressing it. Touchy subjects hahaha, life is never easy. I suppose if it was easy it would be slightly boring right? We all learn those life lessons abut how no one ever said life would be easy, and nothing worth doing is easy and so on, but honestly, some parts are easier than others, and some parts are so hard that I think I will never make it through. Without the support I have had recently from a couple close friends, I would probably have gone insane. You know how some things you can only share with certain people? It’s kinda like one of those things, but different, it’s hard to explain. Anyways, I just found this quote and thought I would write a paragraph or two about it. I don’t know, sometimes little things like this spark little things in my brain and I have to write them down.

I just have something to say regarding the whole life being hard and such. When I first started my program last year I had never done anything that hard in my life; and coming from me and my past that is saying a lot. Last year was hard, and there were days when I wanted to quit, Nd just pack it in and peace out, but I didn’t. I had the support of my friends, and classmates, and look at where I am now? A couple months left and I am actually starting to like it, and I am finding it easier as the days come. And I do have to say that I am so happy that I stuck it out and continued on, I would have really missed out on a lt of things had I left… And I do mean a lot…

Just goes to show that things do get easier as they progress. So if you are having a hard time or thinking about quitting something or whatever, just dig down and find that little bit of strength that you need to get through it. It will come, and you will get through it, and it will be worth it, I can promise you that. You will find amazing things along the way as well, things that will surprise you too, good things, wonderful things. Try it out, dig down, it will be worth it.

Cheers my friends,
Kyzzer

Song of the day: What doesn’t kill you (Stronger)- Kelly Clarkson

Friends… we all need them; this is why

Why they are friends

Because… they smile.

Because… they understand just by looking into your eyes.

Because… they finish your sentances and know what you like.

Because… they know you better than you know yourself.

Because… with them you aren’t afraid to be yourself.

Because… you can say something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them.

Because… everything you do together becomes a memory.

Because… you don’t need to do something special to have fun… fun just happens.

Because… you don’t need to explain anything… they just know.

Because… they tell you the truth, no matter how much you’d rather not hear it.

Because… they would do anything for you and get you out of trouble.

Because… they make you laugh harder than anyone.

Because… they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you.

Because… you can trust them.

Because… they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they may seem.

Because… they dry your tears.

Because… you are good enough when you are with them.

Because… they love you for who you really are.

 

Something for everyone to think about. I have recently made some contact with a friend who I have not talked to in over a year, and man is it nice. It’s like we never missed a beat. Super glad that she made contact. I will go into more detail later on. It’s late. Sweet dreams kids!

Kyzzer

Song of the day: “Bridge Of Light”- P!nk. Good song, not the normal P!nk tune, but still a wonderful song.

Come at me world! 2012; Year of the dragon? Nah! 2012; Year of the Kyzzer

So it’s 2012 now, and since the world is ending on December 21st of this year, why not make a new years resolution that doesn’t have to be 365 days? I have to say I don’t usually do the whole “resolution thing” because I never stick to it. It goes on for a week, maybe two tops if I am lucky. But this year I am going to go against the grain and I am going to try one out.

Everyone that I hang around with, even some people I don’t hang around with, tell me that I need to start taking time for myself, and I need to start taking care of myself and stop worrying about everything and everyone. So for all of you guys who keep telling me this, I am going to give it an honest effort. I am hereby declaring 2012 Kyzzer’s Year.

Now, this will be a difficult task, I can already tell. I really enjoy helping people out and making sure that everything is hunky dory, and putting myself first if really hard for me. Let us examine today for instance. I thought to myself “Self, lets start this new year by perhaps having a bath and reading your book. Have a little relax time, do some reading, thinking, maybe have a convo with myself.” So I get my book and towel and I drag my behind into the bathroom to fill up the tub. Then I stop and think what the eff am I doing? I hate baths! Sitting in my own microorganisms, sitting in my own dirt… who am I kidding? This is not me, showers are where it’s at. Anyways, as I am gathering my book and towel, I see that there is some water stains around the drain in the tub, so I decide that I will help my mom out and get the CLR and give the tub a once over. Well if you know me, my OCD took over and the once over of the tub turned into a once over of the tub, the walls, the toilet, the floor, the sink, and under the sink… not a good start to my resolution. There I go, putting others first… who knew how hard it would be to be a selfish beyotch? (Although according to a few people bitch is my middle name… doubtful). Needless to say the bathroom looks good, and I felt pretty good about myself for helping out my parents so they had less to do.

I have decided that the reason I like doing things for others is because I like to see the smiles and I like to feel like they appreciate what I have done. I don’t know, I’m weird like that. It’s the little things that keep me going, they are the best. It is hard to stop something or slow it down when you get so much out of it. Like I enjoy helping people out ad doing them favours. I guess my weakness is that I care to much (Papa Roach quote anyone?) Hopefully this is my year to start fixing this, and trying to start taking care of myself a little bit better. I will try and track my progress. Even if I do something for me once a day? I think that should count towards my goal. I will do my best to track progress and come here with ideas and issues.

Anyone out there have any resolutions they want to share? Plans for the last year of existence? The last hourah before we all kick the bucket? Send ’em my way, we can discuss, I look forward to hearing all your wonderful resolutions. Happy 2012 to everyone, may it bring positivity, good health, passing grades, and happiness.

Kyzzer

PS- weird thing happened when I was cleaning out under my sink… I found a “home plate” under the sink. Now I seriously have no clue as to how it got there, but it was there. Either I was a bad kid and my parents hid my home plate from my baseball set, or I got ticked at my brother and hid home plate so he couldn’t play. Either way I had a very good chuckle when I found it. I wish I knew how it got there though, I am sure it’s a precious story.

Song of the day: “Knock, knock” by Mac Miller. Just a fun tune to jam to, makes me smile. Check it out if you get a chance.

This lady knows her stuff. Take her advice. For real.

I got this in my e-mail inbox this morning from my dad. Some of you may have already seen it, but I just feel like I need to share it and get it out there again. Such wonderful life lessons. This lady clearly knows what she is talking about. Have a wonderful Sunday everyone, make someone smile today, that is your task.

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old. This is something we should all read at least once a week!!!!!

“To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I’ve ever written.

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Change the way you think.

4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month..

6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. Release your children when they become adults, its their life now

9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay cheque.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.

16. Take a deep breath It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Just because you believe you are right, doesn’t mean you are. Keep an open mind.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26.. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. Your job is to love your children, not choose who they should love.

35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come…

43.. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield..

45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”

 

Kyzzer

Song of the day: “Hold On”- Wilson Phillips. Its an old one by still a good song.

365 days ago, this girl started a blog

Bonjour followers. I just wanted to drop in today and just say thank you. It has been a year to the day that I wrote my frist blog. My does time fly. I was reading back and I started this blog to get my feet wet in the writing world… and to complain about school. Compare that to my last blog where I am pretty much begging for school not to end. Apparently things change eh? Although my feelings about not being done school have not changed. I still don’t want it to be done.

However, in saying that I just want to thank everyone for reading, for leaving comments, and just for stopping in and having a gander. I appreciate it more than words can say. I hope to keep the writing coming, and perhaps I will get my life in order at some point. If I do you guys will be the the first to know hahaha. Much love to everyone, count on more good stuff to come in the future for sure. So keep dropping in and leaving the love.

Thanks again,

You all deserve hugs, when I see you next time I will deliver I promise.

Kyzzer

Song du jour: “Gone Forever”- Three Days Grace (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vALtI8wcTk) good song. I really like to dig around and find the gems like these hidden in my playlists

Feel good drag

I gotta write, I need to do something. What to write about? Something that isn’t going to make me sad. I am in a slump and it doesn’t look like I am going to get out of it anytime soon. Everything I do is just lame, and sad, and I can’t seem to shake it. Like what the heck is the matter with me? Besides what we already know? Anyone out there have any jokes? Funny stories? News? Gossip? Anything?

I guess the big fad right now is Call Of Duty: Modern Warfare 3? I myself am a COD fan, but have not got around to getting the new game yet. I might pick it up on Friday when I go hit up the stores for my new Harry Potter DVD! Woooop! Any HP fans in the house? I know that these two topics have to spark some thoughts in your brains? It was a big release week for me. There was COD:MW3, Harry Potter 7.2, and the new Stephen King book was just released the other day as well. Any readers out there? I have not picked it up yet, it is on my Christmas list though. Has anyone read it? Got any tips? No spoilers though, that is a rule.

Does anyone else hate saran wrap? Like seriously? What really needs to be THAT clingy? Gosh it has more cling than a Stage 5 clinger. I pull it off the roll and what does it do? Wraps around my hand like a boa constrictor for Pete’s sake. Like I just want to wrap up my leftovers, not put a plastic shield around my hand. Just wrap up my food and stop clinging to every surface EXCEPT the surface I want to cover. I did not open the saran wrap to wrap the counter, or to have it curl up all over itself, I took it to conserve the life of my leftovers. I am a starving single student and it is a common thing to use in this household, however if there was an alternative, I would be using that instead. There is nothing like pulling out a nice piece of Saran and having it curl and wind like it’s trying to get away from you. Then I get mad, then the cursing starts, then I try and take another piece and it ends up getting me back to square one, then I toss it in the garbage and just use tin foil. Eff you Saran.

If this wasn’t the most random blog I have ever written, I don’t know hahaha. But really guys, I would love some feedback on anything? Positive, or negative. Constructive criticism is always welcome. I accept questions, comments, concerns, anything. Let me know what you guys want to hear, or what you guys have to say. Heck if you want me to write about something I am all ears. Anything you guys have is greatly appreciated. I hope you all have a wonderful day.

Until next time,

Kyzzer

Song du jour: “Seek Bromance”- Tim Berg. Solid tune, good beat, makes me want to start dancing, but it also makes me think of that someone who I am trying not to think about…

Thank God for all I missed, cause it lead me here to this

Ok so I have been doing some thinking. And since I have no one that will listen to my rambling, I turn to you wonderful readers. All of you guys are awesome for popping in and taking a look around, even for reading, and making a comment if you do. If I could meet all of you I would personally come over with fresh cookies and milk and we would have a visit.

Back to my thoughts. Like I said I have been doing some thinking recently and I have come to a couple conclusions. I have been thinking about school a lot. And I was thinking about this last year and half and what has gone on. When I first started school I hated it, I couldn’t wait for it to be over. All I thought about was being done and getting out of hell and getting into the real world. I counted down the days until I would be done. Never in a million years did I ever think my feelings would change.

I started thinking about graduation, and passing my national board exams, and passing all my courses and stuff and it hit me: why would I want to hurry this up? Why am I not cherishing all that is being given to me at school? I have made amazing friends, all of whom I share something special. I have top of the line teachers, mentors, and clinical instructors. And I am getting a perfect education in a state of the art facility designed by a hygienist, for the hygienist.

Every single person that I have come in contact with during my time at school has taught me something. Whether it was a school lesson, a clinical lesson, or even a life lesson, everyone has played a part in my development as a student, and as a person as a whole. That is something that you can’t just get. It comes with experience, and with every day life lessons. If I can turn out to be half the person that my instructors are, I will be set for life. If I have some of the qualities that my friends have, I will be laughing.

I sit here and think, why would I want to leave this? I get a little sad because I have so many memories, so much experience, so many wonderful things, and soon it will all be done. We will graduate and go our separate ways, and each will be successful, and we can all look back at our time at school. Some will keep in touch, some will not. But no matter what we all went through our schooling together, and we will always have a bond. We were that class that had to make the transition from old to new. We were that class that stuck it out and made it through thick and thin. We were the class that had no cliques, that got along, that was there for one and other when something didn’t go right, we were that class that everyone wants to be a part of. I am so happy to have been part of the Graduating Class of 2012 (hopefully I am, I know grad is a few months away, but my fingers are crossed.) You guys are all special in your own little ways; teachers and students. I thank you all for helping me through the tough times, and I hope I was able to do the same for you. I will never forget all the laughs we shared and all the good times we had. In saying that, I can’t forget to throw in the bad times to. Even though they suck, and I am pretty much 200% sure there is more to come, lessons always come from the bad times.We just have to take this one day at a time and we will make it.

One day I hope to work as an instructor/clinical instructor/secretary for my clinic. I would love to spend the days doing something I enjoy with people who have so much knowledge and skills to offer. After I complete my degree a few years down the road I might be back to change someone else’s life or offer up some of my knowledge so I can perhaps better someone like everyone who has made me better. Then maybe someone will blog about me… hahahaha! How cool would that be?

To all my instructors, and my classmates, thank you. I know sometimes I am hard to deal with, and sometimes I have a negative attitude, but I wouldn’t trade this for anything in the world… except maybe Justin Bieber’s hand in marriage… just sayin’. Let’s keep it up and get ‘er done. I know we will all be fine and we will all be successful. Cheers to all of you. Let’s make these last months together epic ok? We got this.

Kyzzer

Song of the day: “This”- Darius Rucker (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjKFb-4t_vg&ob=av2n) I find this pretty fitting with this blog. Just keep pushing. Things happen, but everything does happen for a reason. Keep your head up

When my world is falling apart, and there’s no light to break up the dark, that’s when I look at you

So do you guys ever get that feeling? You know that feeling I’m talking about? That “can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars, world series” kind of feeling? (yes that quote just came from It Takes Two… what are you going to do about it?). That feeling where you are pretty sure you like someone, like really like someone, but you know it’s never going to happen? No? Yes? Am I the only one who is feeling like this right now?

It’s that one person, that cute boy, or that pretty girl. That one person you can’t get out of your mind. That person who, without even talking to you, or looking at you, has you just mind blown. That person that you dress to impress, you walk by where they hang out, just to get a look, you sit beside them at lunch or in class, you try and just throw anything out there just so they notice you. But you know they don’t even know you exist. That is what hurts the most.

Why is it we always go for the things we can’t have? We can’t be with this person for so many reasons, not counting the fact that you are invisible to them. They are too old, or to young. Married, or with someone else. Too tall, to short. Too fat or too skinny. To rich or too poor. Or all of the above. I feel like I could give them the world, more than anyone else could, but it would never happen in a million years. Its so hard to have someone that means the world to you, but you can’t tell them in fear of wrecking what friendship you already have.

But there is that one little time when they notice you, say hi, ask about your day, or even just give you a wink or a nod in the hallway, or wherever you are. Those little moments that probably don’t mean diddly to them, mean the most to you. It gives you that glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, one day… Or I suppose that maybe we will come across someone better? Or someone equally as amazing as we think this other person is? Gosh, for all I know, this person could be a total a-hole behind closed doors. Or they might really just be friend material. Or acquaintance material.

I guess what I really want to say here is that to you guys out there who this post applies to. Both the ones that I have these feelings towards, and also to the people who share my feelings just remember one thing for me. Remember that you mean the world to someone. Whether that someone says so or decides to be like me and keep it to themselves, you still mean the world to someone. Whatever happens, happens, eventually the ball will be in our court, and maybe we will get the guts to play it.

Until I get to that day comes all I have is this blog, and the memories.

Kyzzer

Song of the day “One Life”- Hedley. Check it out, its got a great message, and it sort of fits in with this blog about just going out there and taking life by the horns and doing what you have to do. We do only have one life, let’s start living it. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1RrnMmykHg) Check it out here from their new album Storms.

Also if you guys are in the giving mood please help out my group of friends as we try and Fill A Stable for World Vision. That is our class gift this Christmas. Donations are always welcome

https://catalogue.worldvision.ca/Gifts/Forms/EventHome.aspx?eventId=277992&action=attach#.Tp9LhI0a-0A.facebook

That is our link. Hit us up. We really appreciate it. If you donate I will personally send you hugs and cookies.

Much love, thanks for taking the time to read.

Grumpy gills

What’s good Thugs? How goes the transition from Fall to Winter? We all know it’s coming at some point, might as well get it over with. Not that I mind winter, because I don’t. We get along, we have bonded over the years. And when winter comes, it usually means one thing… the NHL is back in business. That makes for a shorter winter.

Anywho, it has been a while since I visited you all so I thought I would come and say hello. So, hello!

When I was sitting here thinking to myself “What kind of blogger are you? Just random. Posts for a few weeks, then nothing for months. You have to get your act together.” So here I am, trying to get my act together.

Nothing new to report, just watched the Jets game. Every time I see the stupid Toronto Maple Leafs win it makes me gag. Therefore this blog will now be a negative one. I was all geared up to write something good and inspiring, and/or funny. Now because of the 20 or so odd members of the Toronto Maple Laughs I am grumpy.

First of all Phil “Piss Ant” Kessel and Dion “Douche Bag” Phaneuf decided that they should celebrate a goal like it was their first goal of their rookie season. Get a grip you fools. Do you know how stupid you looked jumping into each others arms? I didn’t realize that this was game 7 of the Stanley Cup finals? Last time I checked the Stanley Cup was never won in October. It’s a long season fellas, you are not invincible. Things will fall into place, and trends will continue. Kessel will cool off like he always does, recall who got picked last in the all star game last year. There will be a goaltending battle at some point throughout the year. Ron Wilson will have a hard time figuring out which goalie sucks the least out of the so called “Monster” and Rehimer or whatever his name is, and the Leafs will again, miss the playoffs and give the Boston Bruins another top 15 pick in the draft next year. I hope Kessel has paid off for you Leaf fans… How good would Tyler Seguin look in Blue and White? Or Taylor Hall? Even Dougie Hamilton? Seguin already has a cup under his belt, where are the Leafs in all of this? Still Cupless… sucks to be you.

In closing, the Leafs suck. That is my opinion, and I am entitled to it. You don’t like it, then leave. Simple as that.

Song of the day: “Fake ID”- Big N Rich Feat. Gretchen Wilson Country song, good beat, and it sounds like a super song to just get you jacked up  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZA_yZ75kkQ Also, if you have not seen it yet, go see Footloose! You will not be disappointed.

Kyzzer

PS. If you are reading this and want to help me and my Dental Hygiene class out feel free. Hit up this link, and you can donate online. We are raising money for Wold Vision with their program that lets you raise money to buy farm animals and equipment for families in need. Our goal is to raise $1200 so we can “Fill A Stable”. Help us out, its our Christmas present to the world. Every little bit helps. https://catalogue.worldvision.ca/Gifts/Forms/EventHome.aspx?eventId=277992&action=attach#.Tp9LhI0a-0A.facebook

Thanks again everyone!